Life goes on....

When do you submit to fate and accept the fact that a girl you've liked for the last 4 months or so has no interest in having that type of relationship with you? Is it when you see her making out with a guy, get pissed, walk out and later to find out that she's liked him for awhile now and all of a sudden you realize that you're happy for her? Thats what happened last night and here's how I handled it.

I waited about half an hour or so after the incident. We have a flower girl that sells flowers at the country bar I frequent. Anyways, I bought her three yellow roses(for everlasting friendship), and conviently held them down behind my leg so she wouldn't see.

I told her that I didn't play her for stupid and I knew that she knew that I liked her. And that I was content with being friends and showed her the roses. She got this look in her eye and gave me a big hug and told me that was the sweetest thing anybody did for her, and that no matter what anybody tells me, I should never change. She kept saying that I was making her be like a girl (she's always been "one of the guys"). I also owe her a dance. I love you Stacy, you'll always be my girl.

I drank till I Stumbled,
I drank till I fell.
When the drunk part was over it hurt me like hell.
Now I know about drinkin' so I know one things true,
Bein drunk's a lot like lovin' you.

Cause I loved till I stumbled,
I loved till I fell.
When the lovin' was over it hurt me like hell.
I know what a taste of the wrong love can do,
Being drunk's a lot like lovin you.

And I've woke up some mornings and sworn off the drink,
At that I've done reasonably well I think.
But I haven't done well swearin off you and me,
At that I've failed miserably.

Well I've felt the hangover of lovin' all night,
I've sat at the bar all alone in a fight
I've bottled up feelings and poured 'em out too,
Being drunk's a lot like lovin' you.

And I've woke up some mornings a sworn off the drink,
At that I've done reasonably well I think.
But I haven't done well swearin' off you and me,
At that I've failed miserably.

I've drank till I stumbled,
I love till I fell.
When the drunk part was over love hurt me like hell.
Now I know about drinkin' so I know one things true,
Being drunk's a lot like lovin' you.

Well I know what a taste of the wrong love can do
Sometimes I still get drunk lovin' you.

I'm back....

...for a little while anyways. I'm not sure how long it will be till my next post. We've been pierside in Hawaii for the last month. However we've been working so hard that all I do when I go home is eat dinner, work out, and sleep. It sucks, but In the last 8 months (has it really been that long?!!?) I've become quite accustome to getting the shaft.

Now, sometimes, rarely, we get off early on a friday. and when we do, look out Waikiki, cuz the sailors are coming for you!! Yeah, I go and party a little here and there, but mostly there.

Now back to work. I usually have a pretty got work ethic. But I'm getting ready to give the navy a big FUCK YOU!! and be on my way. The military has shafted me, and they have shafted me more than once. So I'm ready to put it all on the line and to not give a FLYING FUCK no more.

My HM1 made chief so I'm stuck here by myself for the next 6 weeks while he goes through initiation. I don't know what the hell to do sometimes. Oh, well. I think I'll live.